"To struggle used to be

to grab with both hands

and shake

and twist

and turn

and push

and shove and not give in

but wrest an answer from it all

as Jacob did a blessing.

But there is another way

to struggle with an issue, a question --

Simply to jump


into the abyss

and find ourselves




being led

slowly and gently

but surely

to the answers God has for us --

to watch the answers unfold

before our eyes and still

to be a part of the unfolding.

But oh! The trust

necessary for this new way!

Not to be always reaching out

for the old hand-holds."

(Susan W.N. Ruach)